I have always rejected people, so the KARMA IS GETTING ME GOOD.
Anyways, I don't wanna write the whole lore. I saw him online (ya, never met him irl), just randomly talked to him, got attached, accidentally confessed; he said he was "too busy" and "he hates his life rn". Well, ok, then I could not stop thinking about him for 4 months, so I came back for closure, just for him to say, "I am sorry for making you feel this way; I will do better next time" ???? So I wasted more time, energy, EVERYTHING again, got fed up finally of the uncertainty and got the closure ig, but never expected him to say, "I am still stuck up on my ex, honestly"

Only if he said that 6 months ago, I would not have lost my sanity over a guy, bruh, hands down the most embarrassing moment of my life. Tried "do it for the plot" for the first time in my life; ya never doing that again, broke all my rules. It is so damn embarrassing. Why did I have to fall so randomly? It was my first actual crush 😭. I am done with crushes; never liking a man first EVER AGAIN, he said "I am too full of life and excited" for him BRO WHAT???

I rarely find interesting people like who matches my vibe.. !!

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