My qualifications: I completed my 10th and Intermediate through AP Open School. I then joined B.Tech CSE (specialising in Cybersecurity), but I had to discontinue during my first year. Currently, my qualifications are just my 10th and Intermediate.
Hi Reddit. I'm 20M from Andhra Pradesh. I'm writing this because I want to hear from people who've experienced something similar. I don't need motivational speeches or people telling me that college is useless. I just want some honest advice from people who have been through difficult situations and eventually found their way forward.
I'll explain my situation because there's a lot behind this decision.
My father passed away when I was younger, and things became difficult for my family financially. My mother has been struggling to manage everything, and I've had to deal with circumstances I wasn't really prepared for at that age.
After my Intermediate, I joined B.Tech. Unfortunately, I couldn't continue. I discontinued during my first year because of financial problems and personal issues. I also made some mistakes during that period that made my situation worse. Eventually, I had to leave college.
After discontinuing, I still had pending fees. My previous college retained my original Intermediate Transfer Certificate (TC) and study certificates because of the situation. I couldn't clear the outstanding amount and collect them because I was struggling financially.
For a while, I was trying to figure out what to do next. I didn't want to give up on education completely, so I decided to try getting admission into another engineering college through AP EAPCET counselling.
That turned into a long struggle of its own. I had to deal with counselling, certificate requirements, eligibility questions, and uncertainty about whether I would actually be able to get admission.
At one point, I travelled to a Help Line Centre in Kadapa to resolve my document and fee-reimbursement issues. I explained my situation to the officials, showed them the original memos I had, and asked what could be done. I was told to complete the registration process and verify the required documents. I travelled there, paid the counselling registration fee, and continued with the process even though money was tight.
Eventually, I managed to get admission into another engineering college in Tirupati. Honestly, getting there wasn't easy. After everything that had happened during my previous attempt at college, I thought this might finally be a fresh start.
I was looking forward to starting college again. I wanted to experience the things I'd missed during the previous two years: playing basketball, making friends, meeting girls, having fun, and living a relatively normal college life. I'd spent months trying to get back into college. I genuinely thought that getting another chance would help me move forward.
But the document issues followed me there too. My previous college was still holding my original Intermediate TC and study certificates because of my discontinuation and pending fees. Meanwhile, my new college was holding my original 10th and 12th marks memos. So the documents I needed to sort out my situation were split between two colleges, and I was stuck in the middle.
When I joined the new college, I explained that I couldn't immediately submit the TC because my previous college had retained it. Initially, the admission manager told me I could get some additional time to submit it. But when I spoke to the IT department HOD, I was told that both the TC and study certificates were required.
I couldn't obtain those documents from my previous college, so I couldn't fulfil the requirements. I tried to explain my situation, but the issue wasn't getting resolved. I also couldn't get my admission cancelled and collect my original marks memos because of the pending document requirements. Eventually, I was told to attend classes and submit the documents later.
Imagine trying to continue your education while constantly worrying about whether you can even obtain the documents required to remain in college. I understand that colleges have rules and that documents are important. I'm not saying they shouldn't verify anything. But from my perspective, I felt like I was spending more time dealing with administrative problems than actually thinking about my education and future.
I'd already spent months trying to get back into college. I'd travelled, spent money I could barely afford, dealt with uncertainty, and gone through the counselling process. After all that, I was back in another difficult situation.
The original marks memos held by my new college may be recoverable through official procedures, but the TC issue involving my previous college remains unresolved. Eventually, I decided to leave my new college too.
And honestly, it's a strange feeling. I spent so much time trying to get back into college, and now I've walked away from it. Part of me still wonders whether I should have pushed through and completed my degree. Another part of me feels that continuing under those circumstances would have meant spending more time dealing with uncertainty rather than making progress in the direction I actually wanted.
I don't know if leaving was the right decision. I'm still trying to make sense of it.
There's another part of this that I've only recently started understanding about myself. When I decided to return to college, it wasn't entirely about getting a degree. I missed the life I thought I was supposed to have. I wanted to play basketball, make friends, meet girls, enjoy campus life, and experience the things I imagined I would have experienced if my circumstances had been different.
I wanted to feel like a normal 18- or 19-year-old instead of constantly worrying about money, family problems, and my future. I think a part of me believed that returning to college would help me get those lost years back. But even after getting admitted, I realised that I couldn't recreate the past. Those years had passed, and I wasn't the same person anymore.
I think I was trying to reclaim something I'd lost rather than asking myself what I genuinely wanted to build going forward. That realisation has changed how I see things.
I'm interested in AI, automation, technology, and the possibility of building something of my own. I don't have everything figured out, and I'm not assuming that leaving college will automatically make me successful. I know that not having a degree can close certain doors. I know self-learning requires discipline, and I know that pursuing something independently comes with risks. I'm also aware that people sometimes romanticise dropping out without understanding the consequences.
But I don't want to continue a path simply because I'm afraid of what people will think if I leave it. My mother is willing to support me, and I'm grateful for that. At the same time, I don't want to depend on her forever.
Right now, I'm at home, trying to reflect on everything that's happened and understand what I can learn from it. I don't want this next phase of my life to be about recovering my past anymore. I want to focus on building a future, even if I don't know exactly what that future looks like yet.
I'm not writing this to justify leaving college. I'm writing because I want to understand what comes after a decision like this.
I'd particularly appreciate hearing from people who have experienced something similar in India. If you dropped out of engineering or left college after fighting hard to get back in, what happened afterward? Did you ever regret leaving, especially when you saw your friends graduating or moving forward in their careers? If you took a gap year, how did you use it? Did you eventually find a direction, or did it take longer than you expected?
Has anyone here had to deal with a previous college withholding original certificates or a TC because of pending fees? How did you resolve it? If you chose a different path instead of completing your degree, how did things turn out after three or five years? Looking back, what do you wish you'd understood at 20?
I'm not looking for someone to tell me that everything will work out or that leaving college is the secret to success. I'd rather hear the truth, even if it's uncomfortable. I'm trying to understand my situation clearly, learn from other people's experiences, and avoid making the same mistakes again.
I spent months trying to reclaim the path I thought I'd lost. Now I've left that path behind, and I'm trying to figure out what I should build next. If you've been through something similar, I'd genuinely appreciate hearing your story.